You wanted noise and a faster face.
I sent my soul in lowercase,
You skimmed it once… then clicked erase.
I bought the ticket, missed the train,
Blamed the clouds, but it never rained.
You kissed a fool, I bit my tongue—
Is this how the sad songs get sung?
Just the things I’ll never touch. [Chorus – wide reverb, angsty vocal release] 🥀 Why’s it always harder for me?
Is it you? Or am I the disease?
You get champagne from the sky,
I get silence when I try.
Is it just me… or do you feel it too?
No, of course—of course you do… [Verse 2 – more melodic, but still bitter] I built a castle out of half-spent hope,
You said, “Nice view,” then passed the rope.
I lit a match to see you clear—
You smiled, then disappeared.
They say “it’s timing”, they say “you’ll grow,”
I’ve grown tired of that tired show.
I’m not asking for forever—
Just someone to feel the never.
I lose the plot, they spell my name. [Chorus – louder, rasp in voice] 🥀 Why’s it always harder for me?
You get calm—I get debris.
You get kissed in movie scenes,
I get lost in vending machines.
Do you ever ask yourself the truth?
No, of course—of course you do… [Bridge – ambient, almost spoken-word] “The things I want don’t want me back…”
“Like mirrors that forget to crack.”
“Like songs that end before they start…”
“Like people who never learn your part…” [Final Chorus – full band, distant vocal echoes] 🥀 Why’s it always harder for me?
I draw hearts—you draw boundaries.
You float through—I’m stuck in glue,
And I laugh, ‘cause what else can I do? [Outro – guitar drones, fading voice] Is it just me…
Is it just… me?